This week has been hard. I have been trying hard to get back in study mode for TPE, but really cant. I wake up too late, I get the tube late(and hence cannot get a seat), I cannot smoke on the way to college or get coffee, because am already running 10 mins late! Its insane. Am sick of running behind. And today, I woke up late, so didnt go to college! WHat the hell is wrong with me?
God knows, I used to be so so hyper and motivated. I was so last week anyway when I met Heena on Saturday and even more in a better mood when I watched the Singapore Grand Prix with Sheron on Sunday. But then, it all disappeared on Monday. Its weird today. I had the whole day to myself. and I got so bored. Its almost as if I thrive on being busy. Oh well, at least when am busy, am a little less lonely. I cant remember how life got this hard. It was so much fun before, before I started EY, before mum and dad moved over.
I hate being an adult with responsibilities, I hate having to take the burden of my family on me. Well I dont hate it. Its my duty, I have to do it. And I wouldnt have it another way. But sometimes.. sometimes I just wish, Life could be a bit more different and a bit more fun from time to time? I just hate being taken for granted, and right now this is exactly what’s happening. With family, with friends. Everyone.
I need a break. Or maybe a Date? At least I won’t feel so pathetically depressed every now and then.
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